Well, it's been a little while since I last posted. I haven't been eating well and haven't been working out as planned. Today I saw an old picture of myself when I was skinny and got sad looking at it. This has motivated me to start fresh again with greater determination. I have quite a few weaknesses that need to be overcome:
1. Weekends: Weekends have proven to be particularly difficult for me because there's so much social eating on these days. Eating out is one of the few things I do to relax, so I don't want to give it up altogether. On the other hand, if I'm going to strive to eat well, then the best thing to do is to only go out to eat for the purpose of socializing, NOT for eating. This means that if it's just me and my husband, we'll eat in (most of the time). If friends invite us out, I'll allow myself to go, but try my best to not overindulge. What I order should be something I'll at least enjoy though, because I would rather not spend money on something I won't like.
2. Working out: I have slacked on working out because I'm stressed about my exam. I finally finished reading one of the books I've been trying to get through though, so I plan on going more frequently. I should try to go at least 3-4 times a week, even if it's just for 20-30 minutes and try to really work up a sweat while I'm there.
3. Free lunches: I think it's worth paying for a healthy lunch rather than going to a free lunch, even with the intention of eating only the healthy food. I have to be realistic and accept that I do not have enough discipline to face free food and always resist temptation. It's better to pay for a salad rather than eat the free salad and then give in to the dessert.
4. Pasta: No more cooking pasta! I wind up eating way too much of it!!
5. Lack of patience: I should really focus on the positive, which is that I'm about 5 lbs lighter than when I started. I haven't lost as much weight as I would've liked to by this point. I keep losing focus and gaining and losing the same few pounds over and over again. However, I need to accept that this will not be easy and that things will most likely not go the way I plan. I don't need to lose the weight by any given time. I don't even need to lose it. This is something that will make me happier, but I need to enjoy my life no matter how I look. Maybe this mentality will be a hindrance to my weight loss, but I think it's healthier than pursuing lofty goals and constantly being disappointed. I'll still have goals, but I'll bear in mind that the important thing in weight loss is not to reach your goals, but to make progress, however small it is.
That's it for now. I believe that things will get better. It's just not a necessity.
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